finally, i get around to telling you all what I've been dying to say!
well, since I have neglected to update for like EVER! I'm going to go by day to tell what has happened since we last met..
Thursday- well, what didn't happen Thursday... well, a lot of things, I mean, i didn't die, nobody pointed a banana at me and said, "stick 'em up", i didn't go walking in the forest, but just about everything else happened. so, I went to Cub Foods on Nathan Lane in Plymouth at 3:00. I bagged groceries for like until almost 7:00...then, the power flickered off... then, it came back on for about 5 seconds. then it went off for good. We were all standing by our table with our "Crossfire Volleyball"sign. we bagged groceries in the dark for an hour nd 5 minutes, it was really cool... people were walking around with flashlights and the cash registers died off one by one.
on Friday, we went downtown... and this morning at skating I fell right on my tailbone during my program...not on anything soft, on the hard ice, right on my tailbone.. the BONE!!! ti hurts like MAD!!! I've been pressing bags of frozen peas on it to stop the swelling... yes, swelling. then, the bag of peas will thaw and I'll hve to get another... it's painful...I can't move without it hurting... pfm!!!
Labels: body parts hurting, frozen peas, power outages
getting ready and making ourselves more beautiful than we already are....
This one's of all the girls: top: Katie, Kari, Brooke, Anna, Ashley, Jessica bottom: Lauren, Fizz, Julie
this one is just to show how weird we really are...
Me with my new-found light saber, Anna and fizz helping Huggy Jesus hold the whole world in his hands.. and What in the world is Julie doing???? dinosaur or bunny or ...maybe a kangaroo?
I don't know... anyways,we had a blast!
gonna go rollerblade to work off some newgained pounds... too much candy and sugar this afternoon, hmmmm, wonder where I was?
Labels: bunnies, dinosaurs, formal, huggy jesus, kangaroos, making us beautiful
Yay!
wow, the formal last night was so fun! Anna could go, so that was a total answer to prayer! She came over at 5:00 and we did our hair and makeup and I put my dress on and stuff... It was really fun! Then, at the formal, we ate and did white elephant gifts... Ryan got the light saber, and I stole it from him, then he stole it back from me and then Mark stole it from him and Ryan stole it from Mark and gave it to me... asleep yet? good. so, in other words, after much trauma, I ended up witht he light saber (YESSSS!) We took lots of pix and I will be posting them soon! See you later!
Ash
Labels: formal, hair, light saber, makeup, pictures, white elephant gifts
really really nervous
ok, so I'm taking this skating test tomorrow, and i'm so nervous! It's not a little butterfly thing either..it's like someone's rubbing a rock against the pit of my stomach. I feel stupid saying that I feel nervous for what, ten minutes on the ice by myself? butI am. And, no matter how many times people say, ' you'll be FINE!' I just think
no, I'm not! I'm going to fall, or be on the wrong edge, or I'll do the moves out of order, or finish in the wrong spot, or go too slow-but then I think...
i just can't be worrying about this anymore! i have to just give it to jesus, and let him take care of it. i wasn't nervous at all for this test last time I took it... the last time only 1/3 judges passed me. you have to have 2/3 judges passing you. hey, maybe this time one more judge will pass me and i'll be good. That would be a divine intervention. I have been working on this moves test for over 6 months. i'm so ready that my ears will fall off if I fail. (don't ask why i said, 'ears will fall off', that's how nervousI am/was. I can't think straight.) I like to skate, but it's toally nerve wracking to be THE ONLY ONE ON THE ICE! so, pray for me, dudes!
Labels: falling, nervousness, skating
#60!!!
this is my 60th post! wow, what an exciting thing! yeah, so i was thinking about stuff today, and I was thinking about eating disorders and how they totally mess up people's lives. Like, if you've read
Chicken soup for the Teen's soul there are many many stories about how girls (mostly) have thought
oh, man i need to get rid of my baby fat. or
gosh, look at that fat! i found some info onthe net.... here's what it says:
Definition
Bulimia is characterized by a cycle of binge eating followed by purging to try and rid the body of unwanted calories. A binge is different for all individuals. For one person a binge may range from 1000 to 10000 calories, for another, one cookie may be considered a binge. Purging methods usually involve vomiting and laxative abuse. Other forms of purging can involve excessive exercise, fasting, use of diuretics, diet pills and enemas.
Bulimics are usually people that do not feel secure about their own self worth. They usually strive for the approval of others. They tend to do whatever they can to please others, while hiding their own feelings. Food becomes their only source of comfort. Bulimia also serves as a function for blocking or letting out feelings. Unlike anorexics, bulimics do realize they have a problem and are more likely to seek help.
Signs and Symptoms:
Binge eating
Secretive eating (food missing)
Bathroom visits after eating
Vomiting
Laxative, diet pill or diuretic abuse
Weight fluctuations (usually with 10-15 lb range)
Swollen glands
Broken blood vessels
Harsh exercise regimes
Fasting
Mood swings
Depression
Severe self-criticism
Self-worth determined by weight
Fear of not being able to stop eating voluntarily
Self-deprecating thoughts following eating
Fatigue
Muscle weakness
Tooth decay
Irregular heartbeats
Avoidance of restaurants, planned meals or social events
Complains of sore throat
Need for approval from others
Substance abuse
Ipecac abuse
Physical/Medical Complications
Fatigue and lack of energy
Dizziness
Headaches
Dehydration
Constipation and diarrhea
Shortness of breath
Irregular heartbeats
Depression
Tears of esophagus
Hair loss
Stomach pain and bloating
Erosion of teeth enamel
Chronic sore throat
Kidney and liver damage
Parotid gland enlargement
Electrolyte imbalances
Cathartic colon (caused from laxative abuse)
Edema (swelling of hands and feet)
Low blood pressure
Chest pains
Development of peptic ulcers and pancreatitis (inflammation of the pancreas)
Gastric dilation and rupture
Abrasions on back of hands and knuckles
Anemias
Cardiac arrest and death
Definition
Anorexia is characterized by a significant weight loss resulting from excessive dieting. Most women and an increasing number of men are motivated by the strong desire to be thin and a fear of becoming obese. Anorexics consider themselves to be fat, no matter what their actual weight is. Often anorexics do not recognize they are underweight and may still "feel fat" at 80 lbs. Anorexics close to death will show you on their bodies where they feel they need to lose weight. In their attempts to become even thinner, the anorexic will avoid food and taking in calories at all costs, which can result in death. An estimated 10 to 20% will eventually die from complications related to it.
Anorexics usually strive for perfection. They set very high standards for themselves and feel they always have to prove their competence. They usually always put the needs of others ahead of their own needs. A person with anorexia may also feel the only control they have in their lives is in the area of food and weight. If they can't control what is happening around them, they can control their weight. Each morning the number on the scale will determine whether or not they have succeeded or failed in their goal for thinness. They feel powerful and in control when they can make themselves lose weight. Sometimes focusing on calories and losing weight is their way of blocking out feelings and emotions. For them, it's easier to diet then it is to deal with their problems directly. Anorexics usually have low self-esteem and sometimes feel they don't deserve to eat. The anorexics usually deny that anything is wrong. Hunger is strongly denied. They usually resist any attempts to help them because the idea of therapy is seen only as a way to force them to eat. Once they admit they have a problem and are willing to seek help, they can be treated effectively through a combination of psychological, nutritional and medical care.
Signs and Symptoms
Noticeable weight loss
Becoming withdrawn
Excessive exercise
Fatigue
Always being cold
Muscle weakness
Obsession with food, calories, recipes
Excuses for not eating meals (ie. ate earlier, not feeling well)
Unusual eating habits (ie. cutting food into tiny pieces, picking at food)
Noticeable discomfort around food
Complaining of being "too fat", even when thin
Cooking for others, but not eating themselves
Restricting food choices to only diet foods
Guilt or shame about eating
Depression, irritability, mood swings
Evidence of vomiting, laxative abuse, diet pills or diuretics to control weight
Wearing baggy clothes to hide weight loss
Frequently checking weight on scale
Fainting spells and dizziness
Difficulty eating in public
Very secretive about eating patterns
Pale complexion (almost a pasty look)
Headaches
Perfectionistic attitude
Feelings of self worth determined by what is or is not eaten
No known physical illness that would explain weight loss
Physical/Medical Complications
Fatigue and lack of energy
Skin problems
Dizziness and headaches
Dehydration
Shortness of breath
Irregular heartbeats
Cold hands and feet
Bloating
Constipation
Hair loss
Stomach pains
Decreased metabolic rate
Edema (water retention)
Lanugo(fine downy hair)
Loss of bone mass
Kidney and liver damage
Electrolyte imbalances
Osteoporosis
Insomnia
Anemias
Depression
Cathartic colon(caused from laxative abuse)
Low potassium (most common cause of nocturnal cardiac arrest)
Cardiac arrest and death
see all this stuff? that's not good. If you are looking in the mirror and thinking I look so fat! get a second opinion! Ask a friend that you trust to give you an honest answer. BUt! if they say yes, don't go stopping eating or binging. talk to your doctor about going on a diet and exercise plan! That's a much better solution. Trust me.
Labels: anorexia, bulimia, diet, eating disorders, exercise
